Waiting

He waited. He had waited for days now, for weeks. He waited again and again and again in the false hope that he would call. He didn't call: not in seconds, minutes, hours, days or weeks. Of course his waiting hadn't been passive. He tried, more than once, to call him, but without effect.

What was he waiting for? What was he expecting would happen? That there could be any point was something only a madman would believe. Of course, for some time now he'd been doubting his own sanity. So what then? "It's beyond all reason," he would say aloud to himself when there was no one around to hear; he said the same thing in his mind when there were others to hear so that they wouldn't hear.

Waiting made him a victim: he loved that — he hated that. Maybe he wasn't a victim. Maybe he was just a ****ing a*****e.